I’m never sure what to write

I often start notes on my phone with ideas or sentences of thoughts. Sometimes I write for minutes on end. I’ll get to work early and sit in my car. I start to scroll through Instagram and an idea comes to mind. I’ll frantically type on the tiny keyboard until the very last of the idea comes out. It’s like an hourglass. The words come out so fast until there’s nothing left.

I love to write, but I’m not sure it loves me (or even likes me) back. I often second-guess myself and end up deleting whole sections of text that I had written the day before. Text that was seemingly so powerful and meaningful gone and replaced with a blank screen and a cursor that haunts me.

I’m never sure what to write and I almost always end up deleting it or never looking at it again, but maybe one day I’ll pick up the phone and write something that resonates with someone, even if that someone is only me.